Tut Tut Looks Like Rain...

After 132 consecutive days without rain it actually looks like it could rain today...Maybe I shouldn't be writing this post, I could be putting a jinx on the whole damn thing!

40 Days...

I was not in any way raised to be religious...I tell people that I am Christian and that is about as far as my religion goes. But, strangely enough I have decided to observe Lent...for those of you don't know, Lent is a 40 day period of fasting and purification that begins on Ash Wednesday (3/1) and ends the day before Easter (4/15).

Most Catholics spend the Lent season in prayer, reflection and repentance. Lent is a time for soul-searching, facing great challenges and overcoming mistakes. But those of you who know me, know that I am not that deep :) Other than prayer and soul-searching there are other ways to observe Lent. You can fast in whatever way seems appropriate - its intensity has varied from total abstinence to refraining from eating meat to fasting.

I have decided that I will give up something that I love for the 40-day period, it's supposed to symbolize my return to simplicity and purity. I could give up anything, cigarettes, chocolate, television, surfing the Internet, so long as the meaning of its absence holds significant value to me.

Some of you may be wondering why have I decided to observe Lent since I am not religious...The voluntary surrender of a cherished substance or pastime may have powerful spiritual and psychological benefits (that doesn't even sound like me huh?) Okay, so I'm doing this for my own self-satisfaction and ego...If nothing else, it will show what I can do when I put my mind to it.

Here's the hard part...what should I give up??? I could be more virtuous for a few weeks? Don't lose my temper, don't gossip, don't complain, go to church more often...hehehehe. No really, I haven't decided yet, but I am leaning toward fast food and sweets, what do you think??? It'll help my diet right? My co-worker seems to think that I should give up diet coke, but my God that would be soooo hard!

Here's a little side note, I of course did a little bit of research on Lent and found out that on Sunday I can eat what ever I want, there are actually 46 days and most churches do not count Sundays as one of them. It's just like the diet that I keep saying I am going to start...only this time I really will :)

Hittin' the Gym

Unlike the rest of my family who will remain nameless (Mom, Dad, Amy & Daren), I am continuing to hit the gym at least 5 days a week, sick huh? Unfortunately I am not seeing any results. I believe that is due to my diet...I try to eat healthy but for some reason I don't think a garden salad big enough for 2 loaded w/ eggs, bacon, cheese, crispy chicken and 2 ranch dressings is considered healthy. You would think that as obsessed as I am and have always been with my weight that I would be an expert at this by now. Okay so the pepperoni pizza that I had on Saturday night wasn't really healthy, but it was calling my name...Only 10 weeks until Brooke's wedding and I really want to look good, I don't want to be the fat Bridesmaid!!! I am determined! No more junk food! I used to anorexic for Christ's sake (That was a low point and definitely not a good thing) so I know that I have the will power to do it, but just in case I have weak moments I have recuited 3 of the girls that I work with to join the gym...They are almost as obsessed as I am. So we are going to motivate and support each other, not go out for lunch everyday. Tonight it's off to the Butt & Gut class...I hope I can walk tomorrow :)

Boring...

So how boring am I??? Nothing new, definitely nothing exciting...Same shit, different day! Even though I think things are pretty boring in my life right now I am going to do my best to update this blog more often...Even with all the boring stuff that is going on.

Okay, so here's a quick update...Brooke is finally older than I am, she turned 30 a couple of weeks ago (I'm 29 remember). We had a party for her and it was a great time. Brooke asked Martina to be a Bridesmaid in her wedding and of course Martina said yes, woo hoo! I have a 4-5 centimeter cyst on my right ovary, it's been sorta painful, but my doctor doesn't seem to worried about, so I'm not either. Derek is doing really good on this whole diet and exercise thing, the butt-head is actually making progress, more progress than me, okay so I'm not making any progress. And, even though we are not together anymore this is causing me huge amounts of stress, maybe I'm just extremely vain, but he can't look better than me!!!

So there you have it...My boring update!